KOA

"There is always time for someone needs to say goodbye...but it does not mean that it is forever.."

for almost 8 years, I am a KOA in our parish...4 years of being the president..
but time has come for me to say goodbye to this organization..

BYE BYE

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady Put your hand way up high We will never say bye (no, no, no) Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye As a child there were them times I didn't get it but you kept me in line I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes It's something more than saying "I miss you" But when we talked too All them grown folk things Separation brings You never let me know it You never let it show because

You loved me and obviously There's so much more left to say If you were with me today face to face I never knew I could hurt like this And everyday life goes on like "I wish I could talk to you for awhile" "I wish I could find a way try not to cry" As time goes by And soon as you reach a better place Still I'll give the whole world to see your face And I'm right here next to you It feels like you gone too soon The hardest thing to do is say bye bye (Bye Bye [3x]) Bye bye And you never got the chance to see how good I've done [these lyrics are found on And you never got to see me back at number one I wish that you were here to celebrate together I wish that we could spend the holidays together I remember when you used to tuck me in at night With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight I thought you were so strong That you can make it through whatever It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever [Chorus] (bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x]) Bye bye This is for my peoples who just lost somebody Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady Put your hand way up high We will never say bye (no, no, no) Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins This is for my peoples who lost their grandfather Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

Always be my baby..

We were as one For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be here
So I'll let you fly 'Cause I know in my heart
Our love will never die You'll always be a part of me

I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're ever gonna shake me
Oh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby I aint gonna cry
And I won't beg you to stay If you're determined to leave Girl

I will not stand in your way But inevitably you'll be back again
'Cause you know in your heart babe
Our love will never end You'll always be a part of me I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're ever gonna shake me
Oh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby I know that you'll be back Girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder I know that you'll be back baby
Oh baby believe me it's only a matter of time

You'll always be a part of me I'm part of you indefinitely.
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're ever gonna shake me
Oh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

A sweet memory he will never forget...and that is YOU! ...~12~

Trust?

Trust...

Most often the not..we must look if a person is trustworthy or not..
but before we know if is one...we must know him/her... We must know if he/she is lying.

Mr. 12...got his lot..
he gave up everything...especially when the people around him lose their trust in him... They think that he is always denies when telling the truth...and one of the most painful part for him is that even the girl he loves...lose her trust in him..what the heck..he doesn't know what he needs to do... They always think that he is lying... but the hell he is not!!

as a result..he don't want to go outside of their house...even his parents..don't believe in him..
no matter how good he is doin'...they always tell that he is lying..DAMN!!..can you ever wonder how painful it is? All the person around you are keep on staring and observing what you are doing...expecting the the mistakes you will commit..and they will insult you...F*ck!

He thinks that only one person have trust in him..and that is his adviser...he become his friend throughout the years...his adviser is a seminarian...so Mr. 12 always asks for help to his adviser..
even to the point of saying his "sama ng loob"..and take advices from his adviser..
His adviser help him a lot even though they are not seeing each other always..

It is so painful that the people you loved the most loses their trust in you..it is like you are in the middle of something and keeps on burning you..
it is like his broken heart is being broken again into smaller pieces...the shallow "hole" in his heart becomes deeper..
He keep on thinking that suicidal would be better...no problems..no worries..
but he also thinks of his future..
he hides his feelings away..because he thinks that it is so stupid that someone knows what is inside him..

it is a bitter experience and memory that he wont forget!!

:(

Precious L.O.V.E.

It happened a while ago, when it was still September

I fell inlove to this girl, with a face you'll always remember

It felt good to be with her

Because I know this feeling is forever...

Your sleepy eyes that I cannot describe

Makes my heart pound deep inside

You bring out the best in me

That's why I love you faithfully...

The hugs and kisses we shared each night

Makes my pain seem alright

Being with you is really great

Parting with you is what I hate...

Unfortunately, I never thought that this relationship will end

Because I know that you can always comprehend

I tried to fix the mess I did

But sadly you changed and so I did

As time flew past, I slowly moved away

It's an agonizing pain, but it's better that to stay

We can only be friends

For reality is straight and does not bend

My feelings for you will never fade

I'll keep my promise for it is already said

I shall never forget you my precious love

For you are a gift from the heavens above...

*thanks for a bosconian who wrote this poem.. :)

Hate Summer...

Summer must be the greatest season because almost all are off in their school, can do what they want, sleep, eat, play, hang out with friends, sports camp. But this young man..never experienced a great summer since then...he noticed that every summer he always experienceng unfortunate moments in his life...

5 years ago... their house almost got burned because of his sibling.. many of the important papers and documents got burned..good thing that their life was not eaten by the fire..

Most of us are waiting for summer but this guy...never wanted summer.. this is the time when he is always scolded by his parents for shallow reasons.. They are expecting too much from him even though he can't do some of it..

Also, Summer was the time when his heart was broken because it was his "first love", first relationship...then suddenly it was broken because of his own family..he can't understand why at first, their relationship with his girl was ok with his parents then suddenly..the parents became sarcastic..they changed their mind... And one of the painful part is a person told bad gossips about his special someone...which isn't true.. He lost his trust to that person... When he is calling to that person..it's like she is escaping..Damn.. this was his first relationship..and he sacrificed for the girl...and he knows that the girl sacrificed more...then it was ended with a painful part...

until now he don't know what to do.. that was his first and last relastionship... he can't love someone like he did to that girl..

And after that break-up...his parents still scolds on him so everyday he prays that the next day...he don't want to be alive..everyday his parents added up on his burden...it is like this

every summer...it is always like that...so this young hates summer...and every time this season is coming...he prepares himself for many possibilities..

he wanted to keep himself busy..

summer is always part of his bitter memory..

~12~