Trust?

Trust...

Most often the not..we must look if a person is trustworthy or not..
but before we know if is one...we must know him/her... We must know if he/she is lying.

Mr. 12...got his lot..
he gave up everything...especially when the people around him lose their trust in him... They think that he is always denies when telling the truth...and one of the most painful part for him is that even the girl he loves...lose her trust in him..what the heck..he doesn't know what he needs to do... They always think that he is lying... but the hell he is not!!

as a result..he don't want to go outside of their house...even his parents..don't believe in him..
no matter how good he is doin'...they always tell that he is lying..DAMN!!..can you ever wonder how painful it is? All the person around you are keep on staring and observing what you are doing...expecting the the mistakes you will commit..and they will insult you...F*ck!

He thinks that only one person have trust in him..and that is his adviser...he become his friend throughout the years...his adviser is a seminarian...so Mr. 12 always asks for help to his adviser..
even to the point of saying his "sama ng loob"..and take advices from his adviser..
His adviser help him a lot even though they are not seeing each other always..

It is so painful that the people you loved the most loses their trust in you..it is like you are in the middle of something and keeps on burning you..
it is like his broken heart is being broken again into smaller pieces...the shallow "hole" in his heart becomes deeper..
He keep on thinking that suicidal would be better...no problems..no worries..
but he also thinks of his future..
he hides his feelings away..because he thinks that it is so stupid that someone knows what is inside him..

it is a bitter experience and memory that he wont forget!!

:(